This is part of my 3-piece-program for next year's exam. and he is my
goal NOW. Ballade in F major was composed by Chopin and this performance is played by Adam Gyorgy.
Please be patient and listen until the end.
Today in Sunday service, the pastor talked about "Being a
thankful person". She said the difference between a thankful person and
a not-thankful person is that those who are thankful will have the joy
from above. People who don't have a thankful heart will only have a
temporal happiness, which soon will be overthrown by other worries and
troubles. I've heard this saying a few times before already, but
the thing is that i don't seem to remember it. Everytime when troubles
comes, I forgot to praise Him, or let say I don't want to praise Him.
Today is another reminder from Him that I should count His blessings,
and be thankful for what He has done for me. Let see how long can I
remember it until I start to whine and feel depress again.
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I started to attend Willingdon church's 8:30 service a while ago.
Worshipping in such a big church makes me feel relax, and more
comfortable. I have social-phobia lately (I forgot the exact name for
it), and feel that being a member of a relatively small church is a
pressure. Everyone wants to know everyone's well being and they don't
reallie care whether you wanta share or not. I was once felt very warm
and touched by everyone's care and attention. But soon I figured I need
some time to be alone. With God. Especially during worship. In
Willingdon church, nobody minds (or care I should say?) if I cried when
I was touched by the songs. And God reallie talked to me through songs,
sermons, or simply by His word. It's like we're in heavn, where all
God's people, whether you know them or not, are prasing in front of the
Lord's throne with the angels. This is how a worship should be! Freely
and joyfully!!
I pray that my phobia problem shall leave me soon, so that I can connect to people again. With love, care, and faith.
Just thought of doing a 3/4 yr check for my 2007 resolutions....
1. Study hard to get into the exchange program (to Australia) - so far so good... but I'm not sure if I wanta go to exchange now... wakaka.. maybe a volunteer aboard after grad?
2. Devotion everyday using My Utmost for His Highest
- FAILED...... not everyday.. and after my finals... I kinda stopped
doing devotion... it's reallie bad.... so now i started to pick it up
again slowly.... Lord, please give me strength and discipline....
3. Pass the LLCM performance exam (in November) -
we've decided to do the exam in Feb 2008... changed 2 pieces (I have
total of 3 to perform... ), cross my fingers so I'll be ready by then...
4. Keep up my kickboxing lessons (twice a week at least, or else i'll lose my money!!!) - not bad.. just need to make up some missing classes from before...
5. Must go camping again!!! and also wakeboarding, biking, swimming, badminton,..... just anything active! - Yeah! camping!!! surfing!!!!!! didn't get a chance to bike this summer... =P but I was active~!!
6. Read a mind-striking book (havn't found any yet) - hmm..... no comment on this one yet... ><"
(new) 7. I'm still deciding whether of not i should take a French
course this fall.... it's like a night school... very casual... so no
worry about credits and stuffs.... but i'm taking 4 courses this sem...
dunno if i can handle it... >< ahh!!
Way Back Into Love - from Music and Lyrics Soundtracks
I've been living with a shadow over head
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
trapped in the past, I just cant seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them back again someday
I've been sitting aside time, to clear a little space in the corners of my mind
chorus
All I want to do is find the way back into love
I can't make it through without the way back into love
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
Theres got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions
Chrous
All I want to do is find the way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
and if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hopin you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments that I don't know if it's real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation
Chorus
All I want to do is find the way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
and if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hopying you'll be there for me in the end
It's such a sweet song.... simple melody and lyrics, but it just
touches my soul. How will I find my way back into love? havn't figured
out yet.... but I know there must be a way. Somewhere.
